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rock bottom. I have sunk so low in the past two weeks that somehow i missed rock bottom and ended up going below.
How did this happen?
Well, i could spend an entire blog entry explaining everything that happened, but it would take far too long and take too much of my time. Needless to say, my job at the local pizza joint has taught me serveral things. first, that i'm a fish out of water, in more ways then one. and second, i'm experiecing the fishbowl effect. If that doesn't make sense, well, it's not really supposed to. I'll try to explain however. Have you ever walked by a buisness, specifically a restaurant, and stared at those poor people who got stuck sitting next to the window? that's the fishbowl effect.
how exactly that applies to me, is i just walked by and viewed my life as a fishbowl. the little phishies are swiming around, and they don't seem to notice or care they are phishies swiming around pointlessly. i tried knocking on the glass, but i suppose a very distorted image of another phisie pounding on the glass with a little fin probably looks weird, if not frightening. maybe that's why they ran away.
i owe my marvelous ephiphany to the 'weirdo' vegan who just started at work. somedays i feel as though i'm the only one left in the world who actually gets to know people before they make judgment. (although, i'm not perfect. i'e been far too quick to judge on many occasions)
well, next time you meet a vegan (in transition. she told me she's a vegan in transition) stop and listen to them. they have some good stuff to say.
Now, if you didn't catch a lick of that, i'm not surprised. honestly, the only person who would have gotten the following things of that would really have to be me:
1) something terrible occured at my job, and now i realised i have no choice but to quit
2) i figured out that i am a different culture then the rest of the world, and that's why i dont 'fit in'
3) i realised "the meek shall inherit the earth" only works if the meek are crushed.
4) that being tolerate and 'loving thy neighbor' are two entirely different things. one involves apathay and/or attitude, the other involves honest to god love
5) that pizza joints are stepping stones; those who are using them otherwise have other problems that i won't even go into
6) honest and hard work only pay off if YOU let it.
7) that gossip is actually slander, and slander is an illgeal offense in the state of maryland. God bless america!
8) "i'll smile when i have a reason to smile": if you wait for the world to give you a reason to smile, you won't ever, and it never will. if you haven't figured it out yet, the world is a cold-hearted, callous place
you didn't get all that out of the whole phishie bowl thing, did you?
being a phishie sucks. so, i'm not going to be one anymore.
scribe and halfelven, if you are reading this, that means i want to get together with you guys and have some fun, like old times. what good is life, if you never get to live?
hanna/jane...i still haven't figured out what/where/how/when/if we went wrong, but i'm gonna fix it.
tj, maybe i'll stop drinking soda with you. kick the soda habit.
anyone wanna take up tea drinking with me?
How did this happen?
Well, i could spend an entire blog entry explaining everything that happened, but it would take far too long and take too much of my time. Needless to say, my job at the local pizza joint has taught me serveral things. first, that i'm a fish out of water, in more ways then one. and second, i'm experiecing the fishbowl effect. If that doesn't make sense, well, it's not really supposed to. I'll try to explain however. Have you ever walked by a buisness, specifically a restaurant, and stared at those poor people who got stuck sitting next to the window? that's the fishbowl effect.
how exactly that applies to me, is i just walked by and viewed my life as a fishbowl. the little phishies are swiming around, and they don't seem to notice or care they are phishies swiming around pointlessly. i tried knocking on the glass, but i suppose a very distorted image of another phisie pounding on the glass with a little fin probably looks weird, if not frightening. maybe that's why they ran away.
i owe my marvelous ephiphany to the 'weirdo' vegan who just started at work. somedays i feel as though i'm the only one left in the world who actually gets to know people before they make judgment. (although, i'm not perfect. i'e been far too quick to judge on many occasions)
well, next time you meet a vegan (in transition. she told me she's a vegan in transition) stop and listen to them. they have some good stuff to say.
Now, if you didn't catch a lick of that, i'm not surprised. honestly, the only person who would have gotten the following things of that would really have to be me:
1) something terrible occured at my job, and now i realised i have no choice but to quit
2) i figured out that i am a different culture then the rest of the world, and that's why i dont 'fit in'
3) i realised "the meek shall inherit the earth" only works if the meek are crushed.
4) that being tolerate and 'loving thy neighbor' are two entirely different things. one involves apathay and/or attitude, the other involves honest to god love
5) that pizza joints are stepping stones; those who are using them otherwise have other problems that i won't even go into
6) honest and hard work only pay off if YOU let it.
7) that gossip is actually slander, and slander is an illgeal offense in the state of maryland. God bless america!
8) "i'll smile when i have a reason to smile": if you wait for the world to give you a reason to smile, you won't ever, and it never will. if you haven't figured it out yet, the world is a cold-hearted, callous place
you didn't get all that out of the whole phishie bowl thing, did you?
being a phishie sucks. so, i'm not going to be one anymore.
scribe and halfelven, if you are reading this, that means i want to get together with you guys and have some fun, like old times. what good is life, if you never get to live?
hanna/jane...i still haven't figured out what/where/how/when/if we went wrong, but i'm gonna fix it.
tj, maybe i'll stop drinking soda with you. kick the soda habit.
anyone wanna take up tea drinking with me?
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