last time

I suppose my days of catharsis here have ended. Such days when my social network consisted of written words that decsribed my day to invisbile people, or descriptions of character interaction scrawled haphazardly -perhaps some days-- my only interaction with people, are over. Yes people. my characters are people as much as you and i are. and while you may think i am insane (well... err... nevermind) for thinking they are alive, you just have not discovered the joy of writing. not that i have given up on my self-procliamed title as antisocial, no, far from it, i still have a small group of friends whom i would be greatly upset if parted from me, it's just time for me to move on.

so, while my deleriously juvenile rants acted as catharsis for my 18th year of life, for my 19th year of life, i will focus primarily be focusing on material that is not so much of a soapbox material, but rather excerpts from my life, as it continues. and possibly also haphazard posts on meticuously controlling (manipulating?) every aspect of the only life i can- my poor character(s)- for my own life has a direction all it's own apart from me-- im left but to scream in agony at the speed- let alone control.

read up on my new saga as life goes on
for now, this is me signing off

check please!

AHH actually, i changed my mind. Take it back!!!

turns out i owe that dratted college of mine +4000 dollars on the 17th of this month. some birthday present that is.

slipped at work the other day. the non-slip floor is horribly dangerous. one moment i'm minding my buisness, keeping my 5 plates (tables) spinning as i walk some dirty dishes back the the dishwash area and the next thign i know, i'm on the floor. my first thought was not "ohmigosh it hurts" but "dratted. that's my third broken bar glass this month!"

un/fortunately, i'm not sure which, i wasn't seriosuly injured; i only have a sore arm and a scratch on my finger where i sliced myself with said broken bar glass. no workers comp, but really, would i have wanted it? something tells me i wouldn't have gotten more than minimum wage. ah well.

i have recently discovered the joy of cash cards. i don't have one perse, but i have a travellers check card, which i've been emptying regularly at my daily walmart trips. it's wonderfully liberating to know that i can carry this card, not linked to my checking account like most, and spend what i need. it was worth the 15 bucks to get one. i'll probably even reload it. buy one! they are great.

i'm hoping on putting soem more applications in at some other resaurants. i'm going to need something more substantial than 250-300 a week at the pizza joint to afford college. especially since i didn't qualify for scholarships this semester.

that leaves me to wondering if i couldn't sell some of my cute crafty crap to poor schmucks and make some money. sure, i can pay for this semetser, but what about next semester? and when get my car? i've been saving my money since i got my first job at 13, and the last thing i want is to see it all gone.

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*keeps it short* Haven't been around a while i suppose.

i guess instead of ramlbing like i'm suppose to, i'll just liste the major events in the past (three weeks? month?) that have happened

1) went to utah, arizona, and saw a bunch of craters in the ground. zion, bryce, and grand canyons (both north and south rim), arches nat'l park, and some mormon cathedral. oh yeah, and thta natsy, stinky lake in which they named the capitol in honor. spent nearly a months salary, and didn't make nearly a month's salary, but had the time of my life. took 1000 pictures too.
2) never made it as camp consouler. see above.
3) still working as a waitress at a local pizza place.
4) never wrote 200k words.
5) fought with parents. going to college. payign out of pocket.
6) got kicked out of the firehouse. have three days to return everything i was issued before they attack me with legal issues. they still can't spell my name correctly.
7) still addicted to soda.
8) still avoiding water/tea like the plauge
9) still don't have a car
10) still living in a pig stye of a room
11) did accoplish life goal number (?) and traversed the continant on a death cylander... err plane.
12) fought with friend. still feeling terrible
13) somehow, i grew up too. i no longer feel 13.
14) found out from mom that my brothers are pissed i'm not paying the same rent they were.
15) never moved in with brother
16) still have pet hamsters at bf's house. see above.
17) applied to 7 different resaurants. never heard back
18) oops. went white water rafting on the UT/AZ trip. no pictures to speak of yet.
19) saw the island. good movie minus plot holes. too bad it's been done. saw most of fever pitch. saw guess who. latter was dumb. the former i want to see the rest of before i pass judgement. still avoiding war of the worlds. stupid tom cruise.
20) oh yeah. tried buffalo/bison jerky. ew.
21) fought with my college's incometent staff over login issues with my account. got transffered back and forth between two seperate areas, each insisting that they coudln't help and the other group could.

that's about it. that sums up everything until this point in time. maybe i'll post somethign more tomorrow.

day three

day three. no soda thus far. maybe i had a sip the other day but no more than say, a shot glass full, so i'm not counting it. not much to say. i get up at 12 (unless i work, then i'm there by ten) do nothing until i go to work (or, if i don't work, i just don't do anything) then i go to bed and do it all over again.

from here on out

it came to my attention that the font of my blog perhaps was difficult on the eyes for some *cougholdercough* readers of my multi-update-per-week journal on my activies. so, i made it bigger. for those of you who normally could read it and thing it's too big, well, you don't have to read it, do you?

not much to say today since it's barely started, i've barely done anything etc.

not even gonna go there

I refuse to say anything about star wars, other than to say that the highlight of my day (wednesday); the highlight of my month and week, were ruined by a film i was certain coming from Lucas, would have been better.

that said, things have finally leveled out at work. i think i'm (maybe) starting to earn respect because i show up early, do my work, don't whine abotu customers, do my best to please customers and haven't had any things voided, taking off the check, etc. even the manager who seemed bent on destorying my credibility is nicer, and even apreciates the fact that i am trying to avoid confrontation. maybe he's playing me like a sucker, but it's nice to know i don't have to avoid working with him for the time being.

by no means is this an indication that i'm not going to try to get out. i might even keep the job- working a few days a week for extra cash when i get a full time job. (like many other members of ledos) something tells me that i'll not be moving up any time soon, even though the newest manager quit. i'm simply too young in their minds is all i can figure.

school... i just spent more money on school! i cannot understand why an offical transcript cost ME anything. i'm not the one who wants it, the college does. i think they should pay for it!

speaking of school, the semester is finally over.. and as far as i can tell, i definately have two A's. the arabic class, it's borderline. it coudl be an A, or it could be a B. i hope he takes pity on me, and gives me an A, that way my GPA doesn't drift below 3.5 (again) i had it up to 3.67, until i screwed it up with chem last semester dropping it to 3.61.

that leaves me with an open summer, since i refuse to take summer classes (i'm a college gradjewit after all!) and i've begun making a list of the things that i want to have done, etc. by the end of this summer. i have really high expectations; now that i'm over that whole legal age buisiness, i can do a whole lot more with my summer.

• clean room
• nano-- i need 200k words by the end of the month of august
• daily updates to this blog thing
• get a car
• possibly move out
• get another job
• learn to drink tea and not soda
• undone projects i want to finish
• get into shape/ eat healthier
• learn to get up early
• learn html
  

it's nowhere near comprehensive, they are in no particular order, and have no priorety on them (yet). plus i get to do all that in between working full time at the pizza joint, and these apprent trips i'm going on. i need a digital camera and a laptop so i can log my travels this year. it shall be interesting to say the least.

it's (not yet) 12:01 am on wednesday may 18...

do you know where you'll be? for most, you'll be snuggled in bed, or at least snuggled at the computer for some of you night people. maybe you'll be cramming for a test the next morning.

or maybe, like me, you'll eb at the 12:01 midnight showing of starwars: revenege of the sith. :-D

woe is me, who hath succumeed to my destiny to be a nerdy starwars fan who has to see the midnight showing, opening day. i'll tell you all if it's worth seeing. as i figure, it could be the best of the first three, or the worst. seeing as how lucas actualyl stepped up and made this one pg-13 (all the rest of the starwars are pg, although technically speaking, back in 1977 when starwars first came out, there was no pg-13, just pg then R; so standards were higher...) it could possible be leaning toward the best, rather then the worst. i'm tyring not to expect too much, since i'm paying ten bucks to see it. (although, there we some die heard fans that spent $1000 upwards to see it on the 12th of this month)

well, i have a final tomorrow, which i'm half-temped not to even study for. i need a 55 out of 100 to get an 90.125 in the class, so i'm not going to worry all that much. but, since it's oepn book, i'll at least give myself an hour to cram. my arabic exam, on the other hand, i'll have to study for. i think if i don't get an A on the final, i don't get an A in class. i'll be pissed, because the reason i'm getting a B is because the prof. for the first half of the semester didn't really teach us anything. i learned more in the first week that the new prof was there then i did with the previous 6 weeks with teh other prof. conseuqently, on quiz two, she asked us to translate something, and i didn't bother. i was furious; we were barely able to properly recognize and pronounce the LETTERS and she was asking us to translate words? and i didn't own a dictionary (arabic dictionaries are weird, 1) the run around 30 + for a nice one and 2) you have to know the root of the word to know where to find it. so, in essence, we wouldn't have been able to use one anyway)
well, it gets better. turns out, she figured it was unfair to require us to be able ot translate that, so we were off the hook. sorta. she gave you points for effort instead. and sicne i was like "i don't even know which letter is WHICH YET" frame of mind, i got a 60 out of 100 on that quiz. we only had three quizzes the entire semester. great huh?

saw my hammies last night. sigh. i want to live with them, but the whole 'move in with my brother' thing, seems distant now because of his situation. he might be going off to california, in which case, he'd pay me to live at his house, check the mail, etc. pay bills. i'd get his car too. but then, whether it was the sam adams cherry wheat he's been so recently fond of, or utter 'i'm-jobless' ness, he suggested i come with him. to california.

so i don't know anymore. after wasting 50 bucks on my application, (which they recieved, i just don't know if i was accepted) plus i'd have to quit my job at the (good ole) pizza joint and find a job out there. plus there's the GETTING OUT THERE part. but, it would put me ina good position for script writing. i hear it's easier to get or MSs in if you live in new york or california.

i dunno. my life is changing big time. guess i'd better shut up or else no one will read this. i have to go to work anyway.